Lost and found

 I don't have the time
disgusts me how easy it was for you to look me in the eye
and tell me a lie
I had a sweet tooth for your seemingly innocent cries
more like an addiction 
an addiction over the fantasy of what it could be
but the more and more I hoped, the more and more you proved me wrong
and the worse and worse it got 
and trust me it was no walk in the park
I was walking in the dark
put my hand out and let you guide me to a place
it wasnt easy to escape
you became to me, what color is to vision
and it seemed like we were always in competition 
a competition I loved but soon came to abhor
I followed you into a door
which I thought id never leave 
and there are parts of me I'm still struggling to retrieve
you see, blind love clouds all reason, and boy was I blind
the thought of you and what we could do was all that was on my mind
you were my
ambition
my mission
my reason
my treason
because yes, I did betray my duties to everything and everyone and my justification for it was that you did it too 
this blind love I loved and soon came to hate
but friction started when you didn't relate
friction which turned into sparks then, started a fire
a fire to an inferno
which burned the both of us
I, did you wrong
by, allowing it to go on
for as long
as it did
and continuing to dig
a hole which we became so  accustomed to being in 
because I guess all we needed was eachother right? 
no God, family, friends, just you and me 
we fooled ourselves into thinking there was a right way to do what was wrong
an idea which became so strong
and persisted for so long 
that there was no such thing as moving on 
and there was never supposed to be
you became so attached to me
and detached from reality
living in fantasy
where our love couldn't be stopped even by gravity
you didn't grasp the gravity
of actuality 
and I'm sorry it ended the way it did
but Id do it 1000 times again
not even beginning to mention
the tension
you caused me and Im aware that i have my share of the blame as well but you didn't need to put up with my flaws and I didn't need yours
the difference is you still wanted to while I just wanted to find my mind
and offer it peace 
which is why I released
I ask you one final request
and that is to free yourself of me and allow me freedom in my quest
my journey
my voyage 
back out of the hole
out of the shadows of doubt
and into the light of truth 
the light of the One my love should be directed to
The One
And if need be ill scream at the top of my lungs
Hope I speak clearly hope I'm not speaking in tongues
and if it makes it easy, for the record you've won
I hope you hear me, hope you realize it's done